I feel tired...

And I suppose this is how all new mothers feel. Then I'm a bit scared of having a baby, cos it's so energy and emotional draining. Here's the newest member of my family:

Hah, can anyone guess what this kuro thing is? Pretty obvious but I will try to snap a full frontal picture of it soon (it refuses to stay still). 

Seriously, I think I have commitment issues. I don't think I can stick to my husband or to raising my kids properly, cos I'll probably bail out before the job is done! Maybe my sense of responsibility (or lack of it) and my consciousness will make me sit it out but... 

That thing above is SOOOO sticky to me that I'm half-afraid of it. 90% of the time it's trying to snuggle in the space between my head and shoulder and the other 10% of the time trying to jump onto my bed to try snuggling again. I mean it's sweet and all (aww), but I seriously hate so much skinship. I dislike hugging, kissing and people touching me so with it trying to rub itself against me all the time scares the shit out of me. 1/4 of me is touched, 3/4 of me is trying to run the hell away. (can anyone understand how I feel..?)

Will it change when I have my own baby? I guess only time will tell. For now, I will have to control its skinship problem. =_____=;;;

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