~Confession~


You confuse me.
Really.

How would I describe you..?
You're like an air current
Sometimes 'blowing' hot, sometimes 'blowing' cold...
Changing and affecting the climates and seasons
At your wimp.

You affect me
At times, you treat me so nice, show me so much warmth
That you send me to the highest regions of Heaven
Then you turn cold, you ignore me
emit emotional waves, telling me you do not care anymore
and banishing me to the fiery depths of Hell.

At your wimp, I am going through Heaven and Hell at the same time.

Why can't you show me something definite?
Why can't you just give me one kind of signal?
Make up your mind
I am getting weary of all this
The sudden thrill of adrenaline, my fluttering heart
Then a choking blanket of depression, I die inside.

I myself am stupid too.
I can't decide
if I love or hate you.
I love your wisdom, your humour, your presence
I hate your selfishness, your insensitivity, your brashness
So much so that now
my heartbeat barely quickens when I see you.

So tell me, have I lost my feelings for you?
Or it is still there, buried under all those confusion?


P.S. Sorry, another random thing that I feel it's best out of my system. I'm having verbal diarrhoea right now, excuse me.


*silence*